The Locking Life of Lil b

Locking lifestyle

“THE MIND must always be in the state of ‘flowing,’ for when it stops anywhere that means the flow is interrupted and it is this interruption that is injurious to the well-being of the mind. In the case of the swordsman, it means death.

When the swordsman stands against his opponent, he is not to think of the opponent, nor of himself, nor of his enemy’s sword movements. He just stands there with his sword which, forgetful of all technique, is ready only to follow the dictates of the unconscious. The man has effaced himself as the wielder of the sword. When he strikes, it is not the man but the sword in hand of the unconscious that strikes.”

-JOE HYAM, Zen in the Martial Arts.


March 20, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Welcome back to the beginning of the end.

There’s finally a literal time in my life that my past self is going to educate my present self. I had completely 100% forgotten that this blog even exists. I randomly checked to see if I had a login for wordpress and lo-and behold here I am. Typing into a very unfamiliar box but thankfully it’s a comfortable one. I say that because I never really enjoyed typing into Livejournal and Tumblr. But I LOVED typing into Pitas and Xanga.

I’ve only taken a glance at the last few posts that I had and i’m already feeling like my old self is actively teaching me how to grow again. That Hayley Taylor song is a real tear-jerker and I remember who I was thinking of at the time that made me think “As water, I will make a better future”.

But I digress..

“We lose ourselves so that we may find ourselves again”

This is one of those times.

Over the past year, through means I don’t feel comfortable at the moment sharing on here, I lost myself. So here I am reclaiming what was lost to build towards a better me. Of course this process comes with new understandings and new lessons too. Perhaps reclaiming is the wrong word now that I think about it..

Yes, it’s time to start over again from the beginning. It’s time for my second red star. A new story with an old and updated drive. A new beginning! A new me. I will allow myself one more dream to comfortably unattach myself to my past I was unable to forgive myself and others for. And then it begins!

“So will you teach me again from the beginning? From how to bob my head on beat?”

I’m so glad i’ve finally remembered..

Life = Dance

March 12, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment